Yesterday was a big food freedom day for me.
I have struggled with food and exercise in one way or another… literally for as long as I can remember.
When too little food felt like too much and too much food felt like too little.
I was never able to see past that, thinking it was always going to be hard no matter how much food was on my plate, no matter how many times I went to the gym.
The road to sustainable health had no destination, no end, in my mind. Every exit was a new diet to try or a new way of eating to implement and every speed limit sign was a new quick or easy way out exercise plan that I “couldn’t wait to try.”
I felt like my mind and my body would never be on the same page and that food would have a hold on me for the rest. of. my. life.
A prisoner to the fridge, to the gym, to the scale, to the doctors office felt like my normal.
Flash forward a few months after being sick through 3 major holidays, I found myself nose first into It Starts With Food, and you guessed it, my world changed.
I saw a tiny, glimmering, Whole30 light, (which let’s be real, was probably Melissa’s glowing hair), standing at the end of this ridiculous tunnel I had been traveling down for so long.
And I trusted it. But more than that, I trusted myself. I gave myself permission to try again. To get back up, to take control, to ask for help, to dust myself off and keep aiming to be the healthy person that I have always longed to be.
A part of my food freedom has been deciding to eat the Reese’s cup, or worth it food when it was around but not so much buying it to eat when the time was right. In the past the timing was always right and always equally as wrong at the exact same time so buying and keeping something in the pantry like that was a no-go for me.
Until yesterday, I tested the waters and succeeded. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t cry a little bit. Tears of “oh my gosh is this really happening” fell from my eyes and it was a joyous moment that I couldn’t wait to share with you.
Food Freedom looks different to everyone and that is why it is so beautiful.
It is a process you guys, not an event, so keep pushing, keep trying, keep trusting and you’ll see more progress than you ever thought possible. <3