“You can’t put a time stamp on recovery. “ Yet another phrase I frequently say to my patients. I encourage them to set realistic goals, make a plan and reevaluate when and if it’s necessary.
As day 30 comes to an end I think it’s time to do some reevaluating. For the past week or so I’ve been getting extremely nervous, well, anxious about reintroduction.
I’m not ready….and that’s okay.
I was talking to a friend about it earlier and she had some positive words to say, “But Courtney you’ve done so great and you haven’t cheated once!”
She’s right. I haven’t.
I’ve been in the car, alone, with a pizza and won.
I’ve been face to face with chocolate and vanilla cupcakes, and won.
I’ve been to Starbucks, and won.
I’ve been around my favorite wine, and won.
I’ve gone t h i r t y days without cheating.
I’ve had a significant amount of willpower but willpower isn’t the only component to a successful lifestyle change. Just like with my patients, there is a psychological AND physical aspect of their treatment and recovery that they have to face. In groups, quite often, we talk about their recovery being a 3 legged stool, the legs being emotional, physical and spiritual. It’s about balance.
I’ve worked really hard and I don’t think by extending my thirty days is setting me back. I haven’t obtained the balance I’m “craving” (see what I did there?)
I need to step up my exercise game and become more committed.
I need to continue to learn new recipes so that I don’t become bored of the food I am cooking. The last thing I want to do is lose excitement in the kitchen!
I need to make sure that I’ve done what I can to learn new coping skills. When I am bored, even after 30 days, my thoughts go straight to food… chocolate… fries… you name it.
So, I’m not ready to let go of this *strict* structure quite yet. It’s holding me accountable so I am going to add another 15 days, make this a Whole45 and reevaluate then. If I need to make it a Whole60, I will. I know my thoughts of overeating are becoming fewer and farther between but I am not yet confident enough in myself to slay the sugar dragon if it presents itself.
I am proud of how far that I’ve come… #IAmWhole30 and I am even more excited about how far I’ve got to go <3